Dear “Dear Alexa” –
There is serious pressure surrounding this upcoming hearing right now. No need for details, I’m sure you’re getting an earful already. It feels like an angry-aggressive energy attempting to engage and swallow us whole.
It literally hurts my heart for this is your life being negotiated and you don’t have a voice.
Every “option” feels like the lesser of evils. Every demand feels like mom’s quest to prohibit your ability to choose.
You may think you have full freedom living with mom, but your choices have been severely limited. You no longer have a choice to enjoy activities you once loved because they included time with Dad. You no longer have private text messages with anyone just so mom can monitor all communications with Dad. Soon, you may lose your ability to choose to spend time with Dad altogether.
Dad’s been reaching out in hopes of having a real conversation about what you want and how he can best support you. We’re familiar with your usual MO – “One step forward, three steps back.”
Every positive experience with Dad is typically followed by a few setbacks when mom senses your happiness.
Only this time we have the pressure of court and mom’s animosities building so it feels more like 10 steps back.
For a girl who likes to infuse light and love everywhere I go, I find it incredibly anxious making. The only thing I can do is support your amazing Dad who has an impossible decision to make.
This morning I prayed for a miracle (A Course In Miracles) – A shift in perspective asking Source to heal my thoughts and this experience. One of the ways I commune with God/Source/Universe (insert any higher power that vibes for you) is through a writing practice I learned from Elizabeth Gilbert (Eat Pray Love author) called “Letters from Love.” It’s a beautiful way of connecting with our higher self – The part of us that is connected to and is one with Source.
What poured out of me was touching and, as always, simple (excerpt below).
Ego so loves making everything complicated when there could be a loving alternative.
Sometimes releasing is a demonstration of our strength… courage shown through allowing.
Then three things happened.
- Your Dad came home with great news on three business projects we’re working on – All of which are focused on helping others. It’s amazing how opportunities arise when you’re doing good. There is so much more in this vast world than this temporary experience you are having! We can get so wrapped up in our problems that we’re totally blind to the remarkable life that is available to us. Loving connections and being of service to others is how to get out of the littleness of our ego’s problems.
- “Sa Ta Na Ma” was the first song on my meditative playlist – aka The “mantra of transformation.” It translates as a shedding of the old you and becoming who you were meant to be – Your true self. You, Dear Alexa, are meant for a far greater life than anything you could possibly imagine right now. Try singing along with this mantra while touching the tips of each of your four fingers with your thumbs as shown here. I find that it lifts my energy to a state of joy.
- My sweet niece who also went through a difficult divorce experience shared her perspective – Listen to you and empower you with choice. Your non-responsiveness over the past several weeks IS a choice. And that’s ok. We know the tremendous pressure you are under – especially when legal matters keep tensions high. This is your experience to have and grow from.
Your amazing Dad is making the hardest choice imaginable for a parent – Giving you full teenage discretion despite knowing the manipulative measures your mom is going to in an attempt to prohibit your choice. You are smarter and stronger than you know. Someday soon, you will be back in our lives.
I’m a big believer in divine compensation (ACIM) – Any love that has been withheld or deflected through this experience – any possibility or miracle that has been blocked – is held in trust and will be returned to us in miraculous ways.
All the love withheld and time missed with your father will be returned to him.
We receive by keeping our heart open and blessing those who have harmed us. I bless your mom and I hold a space of love and light to help guide you home.
To touch, to focus, is to expand into insurmountable. It’s not – It can simply be an experience to have and grow from. A tenderness to heal and become from. Trust the process that is forming an amazing human being. Create, Give, Succeed – BE greater than this experience so Dear Alexa will know she’s greater than this experience. Show her how to RISE.
Excerpt from my “Letter from Love”
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